WHERE DO YOU FIT IN?

Finding where you fit in is something that shouldn't be this hard. From the first days of life we are figuring out where we belong, who our friends are, what foods we like, what interests us, and in my case, what i want to do for the rest of my life. we fight tooth and nail to discover what we are made of, goals we need to accomplish, and where we want to be at the end of it all. Through my extensive research and deep thought of say.....a half-hour, i have come up with a conclusion that there are in fact three types of people in this world.
1- The Ambitious.
This shouldn't be mistaken for used car salesman who want to hear themselves speak more than the want to eat, breath, or actually get you into a running automobile. But these ambitious people are the ones who figure out where they want to be, plan out a way to get there, and have the cajones to actually do it. They look at a challenge and whether or not they see the end anywhere in sight, and even with the obvious knowledge of how much they truly don't want to do some of the things they have to and how hard the work will actually be, they push on and not only complete their goals but usually exceed them.
Great people. Successful. Happy....and I despise each and every one of them. Where do they get off having a good work ethic and being goal oriented? Its these people that when you look up at the hill in Bountiful or anywhere else you are driving and see one of those homes that you aren't sure if the Johnson family lives there or its actually the summer home of the Pope and you wonder how in the world someone actually lives like that. These are the people that you inevitably get paired up with on the golf course and find out that not only did they indeed pull up in that huge Hummer in the parking lot, but could double for Tiger their swings are so pure and smooth and the ball actually flies straighter than any ones you have ever seen. They always have the best attitude and try to talk you off your golf induced ledge when things start to go bad around hole number 2. Can't stand them.
2- The Middle of the Road.
This includes most people. A group of average working Joe-shmoes who live each day in blissful mediocrity. They have middle class homes on middle size salaries, a nice sedan or SUV, with a medium size family of five. They have figured out that they want to provide well for their families but didn't exactly have a plan to get their. They have found along the way varying ways to gain enough to do this but it usually has taken 4 or 5 job moves to do so. None the less they have gotten to a point where they have a decent 401k, a great family, a sometimes lacking lawn care system, but a good life.
As for this group.....I hate them too. Where do they get off? Just because you have a decent work ethic and have a sometimes unsettling good attitude that right around the corner there is another opportunity doesn't give you the right to get them. You have seen them driving down the road in their mini vans with their DVD players showing their remarkably intelligent elementary school children images of Disney cartoons and dancing Australian Men in bright colored shirts. Just because you have worked so hard and can finally afford a boat doesn't mean you have to have it parked on your driveway all year long.
3- The Bottom Feeders.
Don't let the name fool you........cause it shouldn't. It means exactly what it says. These "laid back" folks are only using that term because "lazy A#@" was already taken. They have absolutely no clue where they want to go and who they are. They have had an average of 12 jobs between the ages of 15 and 19 and most of those have had the name "burger" or the word "lube" somewhere in the title. Each day for them isn't a new chance to excel like the others, but a chance to see what they can get out of or get away with without actually going to jail. The men group usually have on old jeans that have to be at least 13 sizes to small so that when they turn around it strikes fear into your heart for what you might see. Their hair is un-kept to show off how chill they are (but in actuality it took them twice as long as it took you this morning). You may have guessed it but I am going to say it anyway.......Can't stand them. They are folks who don't have it together and don't have a clue. They wander around looking for the easy way out and the smallest work load possible. They turn into complaining old men who forget what the point of it all was and who yell at little kids for kicking a ball onto their un-kept front yards. They talk about how they have been screwed out of things their whole lives and how so and so had it better but put out the same effort. I have news for you pal. If they have it better now it is because they put in the effort then.
Now the question. Where in this mess of goals, attitudes, and life choices do you fit in? Are you one of those who make goals and go for it or who wait for it to be given to you on a silver platter?
You may be wondering why exactly the subject of this entry is what it is today. Why the serious idea of progressing in life toward the right place. Its simple really. It is extremely easy and obvious if you really think about it. The reason that this subject is on my mind is simply because I don't have a clue where to put myself. I know where I want to be (income), don't know how to get there (job), don't necessarily want to do everything it takes to get there (finish this horrid adventure they call school), and don't know what I have been doing about it. I don't where tight jeans, have a million dollar home, yell at little kids or have a DVD player in my car. I have no doubt in my mind what the important thing in life is and that is family. I thought I had it figured out but since I have started have kids with my amazing wife, I didn't really have a clue. But the rest of the stuff seems like a mean Sudoku game with all the things going on in my life trying to fill in the the right spaces and inevitably not having room to do so. I guess in time it will come out and I will figure out the whole thing. I will find out what I am made of and go as far as I possibly can and hopefully even farther beyond that. But in case it doesn't, in case it isn't meant to be and the life I hope for doesn't quite add up I want you all to know that it wasn't my fault, my jeans aren't too tight, and you need to get the hell of my lawn!!!